More than Serendipity

 Honestly, I forgot about this blog for a little while. I've been dealing with an upset sleep schedule, setting up an Etsy store, and trying to get tasks done on a daily basis (which hasn't been going very well due to the upset sleep schedule). That's all distracted me from my examination of my place in the spirituality spectrum.

Except for continuing to read Modern Magick by Donald Michael Kraig. When I am able to get tasks done, this is one of those I look forward to doing. I'm learning a lot, even though I'm just doing a preliminary read through before I start over again for in-depth study. 

One of the things I've noticed is that the book has a knack for providing information or saying just what I need to read just when I'm beginning to doubt things. Every single time this has happened, it has renewed my enthusiasm for the reading and learning of this occult skill. That, more than anything, tells me I'm onto something with this spiritual path. I honestly don't think this book would be offering such timely advice if I weren't meant to become a ceremonial magician. 

To be honest, I've always felt that someone who is always utterly certain of their faith is someone who doesn't examine their thoughts and feelings on it very much, if at all. Thoughtless devotion doesn't appeal to me. I've tried that, and it didn't work out well. Eventually, I lost the ability to suspend disbelief and became disillusioned with what I was participating in. Far better, in my opinion, for me to doubt and wonder every so often, because it forces me to reexamine my thoughts and feelings on what I believe, and gives me the opportunity to learn a little more and perhaps change my opinions and beliefs a little to better fit new concepts and ideas I've come across since the last time I've examined my spiritual side.

But this has been different. There's so much about ceremonial magick that meets my own thoughts on faith, religion, and how the world operates that I'm almost always enthused by it. When I begin to doubt, or come to see it as nonsense, Donald Michael Kraig's book brings the esoteric aspects around into something I can understand and agree with. He actually encourages his readers to question his teachings, and pretty frequently suggests we read further in the occult subject. This is something I intend to do, but I want to get through this book first, and see if I can find a book stand so I can buy some of the print books I've found, because one thing I agree with him about is that I shouldn't base my magickal education on his book alone. I need to read other books, and that's what I like about this. There is no One True Book to refer to like there is in certain religions, and I have an opportunity to learn from a variety of people on the same topic.